lesson

Calmer today than I’ve ever been

learning how to survive, be my own friend

left alone to be, sit in my thoughts

this type of lesson is earned, cannot be bought

its been difficult and sad I won’t deny

mood swings from panic to excited and cry

in the past I would bottle my feelings, not let them out

keep them to myself yet never speak them aloud

I’m more centered now and seem more aware

evaluate emotions based on whats right and fair

so I’m sad no doubt but have made some gains

in classic fashion growth arises from pain

I’ll be okay now despite the bad times

in moments of struggle I’ll sit and find

the version of myself thats been through it all

the one in the arena who stood after the fall

7/25/24